nasyita

2011-07-31T22:20:00.001+08:00

beautiful relationship.

true friendship. unity. strength. :')

much missed.

2011-07-31T14:57:00.002+08:00

got this long time ago. a month ago i think. hah. but yea. my grad pics by the professional photographer. :)

i got really nice legs. HAHHAHAHAH! *cheersmate!*

2011-07-31T14:06:00.004+08:00

a month of silence does not mean a month of suffering.

a month of silence that is filled with real lots of laughing gas.

13 July 2011.

Not only it was Danial's birthday, but it also marks the first day of my working life. Didn't really know what to expect. Wasn't really adapting well initially. But i love the fact that my neighbouring partner was rather friendly. She guide me along real well and make me feel welcome. And now, im happy to say im adapting quite well. It was just one of those silent moments when you are facing those first-time experience. It always happen that way isnt it nasy?

Anyway, so what is the first that i do once i settled down in ze office?

To have the necessity in my life brought to office: That red handbook and the small photograph that gives out a million words & love.

23rd July 2011

Nadiah 21st was celebrated at the chalet with her loveliest family and friends. Amazing time spent. Planning those small mini surprises with nadzirah. Thank god that nadiah was being really oblivious throughout cause nadzii and i were the most lousiest at hiding stuff. Hahaha. Im only good at planning but execute it? Bochuiiiii banyak2 uh. Anyway, gave her a big box filled with my love. Something that can last for the first 21 days of her being 21.

And of course. Without the ging-gang-golly people, things were never be as exciting as it was. Adc can really one of those christmas carols. They are sooo good at singing together and backing up one another - be it voice or action. classic. =)

a month of fulfilling stomach. share real lots of laughter and positivity. bonding was never enough. and of course, now is time to share the faith and beliefs around. ramadhan is here. lets all control ourselves a bit and give more time to the one who actually broughts us all around together. =D

2011-06-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

i need

- a new shoe

- a new dress

- a new good storybook

- another gateaway perhaps? heheheh.

i love seeing your smile. only that. period. =)

Greyson Chances - Waiting outside the Lines

2011-06-23T16:57:00.002+08:00

grYou’ll never enjoy your life,

living inside the box

You’re so afraid of taking chances,

how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,

force you to play it safe

Get rid of all the hesitation,

it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around

and looking down on tomorrow

You gotta let your feet off the ground,

the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets

even if it’s just tonight

How you gonna walk ahead

if you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position,

you deserve so much more

There’s a whole world around us,

just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around

and looking down on tomorrow

You gotta let your feet off the ground,

the time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile

I’m here to help you notice the rainbow

Cause I know,

What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)

the first step is the hardest (the hardest)

I know you can make it,

go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life

Living inside the box

You’re so afraid of taking chances,

How you gonna reach the top?

2011-06-09T12:48:00.004+08:00

pardon me for the fact that you have to tilt your head watching this video. i have no clue how to rotate it.

Otherwise, Happy 22nd birthday Mohammad Noh bin Abdul Rahman. Hope you enjoyed that short celebration my friend. Plus all the gifts. =))

wanna see how tan i was upon returning back from bintan? a distant picture with no aid from the flash. very burnt indeed.

tadaaaaaaaa.. k i know i look uglehhh with the very tan skin tone. i didnt apply any moisturizer or anything hence my skin began peeling. and i've grew slightly fairer as compared to faris. he applied moisturizer everyday and the skin remain the same. very very tanned indeed. hah.

birthday in 5 days time. got my first present from elder brother. north face goretex jacket. really awesome! but im just too bummed to take pictures of it. =)

have a nice day peopleee..

2011-06-04T10:07:00.002+08:00

bintan was oneee kick-ass place to do camps! with all the super awesome friendly instructors who makes me feel comfy enough to join their cliques. 4days is definitely not enough for me. like seriously..

one of my camper said this after trying to do a particular thrilling activity.

"the hardest part is to learn to let it go."

and it hits me damn right.

the hardest thing is to learn to let go. in life everyone makes mistakes. and everyone have this one tiny bit of their life that they refuse to let go. Verbally yes but truthfully? no one knows. and im not talking about neither egoism nor self-esteem. its more about sense of belonging. you once had that perfect/nice connection somehow or another to that piece of smtg. be it memories or present situation. be it love or hatred.

you just have to stop denying it and start accepting. face the face and do the necessary action. stop hitting others with it and be independent. after all you live your own life right?

sooo ale nasy! those 4 days have change and strengthen your thoughts. both the breeze and waves have definitely do you good. You know what you want and need. just dont fall back alright. you used to be one strong lady and you are still definitely are. =))

2011-05-30T13:46:00.007+08:00

off to bintan to facilitate some camp tmwr.

hope when im back i have some good news awaits.

1) either one of the two jobs calls me in and i can start working IMMEDIATELY. hmmm

2) someone from nyp adc makes it to the final for pumpfest. if its nadzii or noh, i swear i will treat all adc climbers for some kfc. so ale to these two berat bontotzz!

3) my mind is cleared from unwanted things and back to that strong dominant mind.

To you,

"A girl can be your best friend, worse enemy, a real sweetheart, or a real bitch. It depends on how you treat her"

2011-05-29T17:18:00.001+08:00

approximately 2 weeks for nabs to borrow muis halal chop and get me one big pig so we can have a feast on my birthday. all are invited!

~strong-dominant~mind!!~

2011-05-28T22:51:00.004+08:00

i realised that my two other siblings are having the same fate as me.

ha-ha. coincidence much?

anyway, i finally learnt how to think or have a point of view from a larger scale. wasnt that easy but i did it i guess?

you dont have to push things through. it will come to you. accept it rather than ask for it. =)

2011-05-26T01:49:00.001+08:00

Dougie’s the most extreme in his actions when he likes someone. He’ll buy her the most amazing presents or has hotel rooms decorated out. He falls in love really easily.

Tom Fletcher, Now Magazine (via mcflastic)

oh baby! i would do just the same for you! oh wait. im just like you! i think? lol..

2011-05-25T12:23:00.001+08:00

i want this on 14th june can?

2011-05-22T22:52:00.004+08:00

i realised that my life is pretty much a wreck.

neither this nor that.

but who the fuck care?

im happy

& living every moment of it

2011-05-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

the moment where you are actually surrounded by your own group of peers but you still feel lost and lonely somehow. & all you want is that someone you adores to be there pulling your loneliness away. yet again, you know it can never happen.

2011-05-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

" Would you go for someone you love, or would you go for someone that loves you? "

And johnny depp ans:

“If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another. There are four questions of value in life… What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.”

And you got the complication of love life. you can never get it right despite galleons of tears spilled.

2011-05-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

i tried running my lungs out today.

but the lungs refuse to come out.

hence making me feel reallll cranky!

tried thrashing it out with some people.

but end up me listening to their stories instead.

& i just go by *pardonme* 'WTFUCK'

for once, stop, listen, and give me support instead?

thats why i always love my spongebob soo soooo much!

she understood the way i felt & have ALWAYS been there for me.

& if my memories never fails me, im always there for her when she need me to. (ihope!)

thank you for everything prettyhead! also for making me addicted to ICE CREAM!! hahah.

crap. im really cranky now.

2011-05-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

thats why you will always be my sunshine.

thanks edmund! i will be alright.

=))

2011-05-16T16:22:00.003+08:00

the man sat on the floor with the guitar on his lap

he strung my all time favourite mcfly song - its all about you

to top it all off, he knew and sang every single words to that song!

*melts*woohooooooo!

2011-05-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

cable ski 360 @ east coast park

it was pretty wicked!

best of all, its all about playing with water!

end the day with a feast.

bbq chicken, stingray, satay and veg.

& FROLICKS!!!

couldn't make me anymore a happier fatkid

thank you buddy! =)))

2011-05-10T15:37:00.004+08:00

learnt a very great lesson indeed;

when you get caught in the impact zone,

you need to get right back up

cause you never know what so good in the next wave

and if you have fate,

anything is possible.

anything at all

who am i to kid? love do exist! & you can never get numb by it. all these while, im just living in denial. resisting what comes to your life is just like resisting fate. it may be good or bad things, nevertheless, if it is meant to be then it shall be. after all, there is always a rainbow after a storm right? its just a matter of how long will the storms last. so struggle it through despite how tough it gets. else, you will never get to see the lovely and amazing rainbow. =)

anyway, my bitchy mood swings is here again. pms much? i guess so.. b-e w-a-r-y!

i have always want to learn surfing. staying connected to the water. but i guess i have to do with swimming for now. wait till i start earning real buckaroos then!

2011-05-10T12:35:00.002+08:00

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

2011-05-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

'think i better leave right now

before i fall any deeper.'

2011-05-06T02:01:00.001+08:00

i want & need.

anyone?

2011-05-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

i can never say;

"OMG!!! it uber cute!!"

enough.

if only baby was like that,

then hell must have freezes over.

2011-05-06T01:51:00.001+08:00

been having too much fun.

stop. catch your breath nasy

& look back...

2011-05-03T09:54:00.002+08:00

ystd had another 'let-your-hair-down' day.

& all i could describe is:

As the sounds of waves crashes against our boat,

& the blue light blankets over the plain bridge walls,

i found myself smiling again. smiling sincerely.
& best of all,
i got serenity filing up this numb heart of mine.

2011-05-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

'people talk; people stop'

i like that real lot.

had a gossip girls session with the lovely nadzii. we had most of our secrets exchange. & that definitely make me miss nurul nadiah bte sapuan like realll lot! ever since she had her 'homestay' in HTA. its so hard to meet her. nevertheless, it helps me to be closer to nadzii as well. =))

& after we bid goodbye, i began having a different feelings in me. i feel like jumping. i feel like dancing. i feel like singing aloud. its was a joy i missed for the past weeks.

2011-04-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

2011-04-29T00:15:00.001+08:00

Quotes like this never fails to put me in doubts.
blimey!

2011-04-28T23:53:00.003+08:00

Could never be more blissful in my apparent life

Great company.
Great games.

Great food.

But my mind still couldnt be at ease

& am pretty much amazed at how much they really want me to cheer up.

I can never thank them enough

i figured my life pretty much changed. the effects of his doing. i lost all my self esteem. as much as i want to move on but i dont feel good of myself anymore. & coping up at home the entire time doesnt help me either. i do seek for jobs but apparently the jobs didnt seek me back. what other choices do i have?

next up shall be j.b with these buggers. the fatkid club. hah! i can never run away from clubs like this. initally was B.B. now fatkid. -.-"

2011-04-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

L-O-V-E

I forget the meaning of it though i once knew

I dont believe in it though i once did

Numb is the word

Ignorance will be the action

Intimacy is just one fucked up killer

Period.

2011-04-22T19:13:00.001+08:00

Above the Noise Tour

24 April 2011. Tennis Indoor Senayan, Jakarta.

Ticket

Festival Rp 350.000,00 ($50)

Tribune Rp 275.000,00

I AM SERIOUSLY GOING ^@&^$#* CRAZY OVER THIS!!

I FEEL LIKE BOOKING AN AIRFLIGHT TMWR TO WATCH THEM!

damnn. if only i was 21, i would be getting $700 and this will be done with no considerations AT ALL!!

URGHHHHHHHH!!!

2011-04-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

2011-04-03T18:06:00.005+08:00

meet me & you can see what's in there. =DD

i just realised that noh's blogskin is in complete black which totally contradict to mine. so much of an opposite attracts. lol.

anyway, i've been going out daily for the past few days. Which also mean that my money is depleting VERY fast. and yes, im still jobless apparently. applied for spectrum but they didnt get back to me till now (even though its only 3days past) but help!! im seriously getting paranoid about it. still praying hard that they will do it soon. be it i get the job or not. least im not being stagnant and cant do anything about it.

putting that concern aside, did i ever mention that ONLY now i realised that im officially done with NYP & ADC. i was in denial stage for the past weeks. till recently, it hits me hard that they no longer need/want me. yes. they may say smtg like oh we always welcome back our alumni and such but i guess that only applies to certain people. the rest? talking about being oblivious.

I break 1001 sweat for the past one year. handling both ADC matters together with my own academic matters. being drained out after attachment and still proceed to school for some work. its like a daily routine. and now. i do not have anymore attachment. i have no business in ADC. so what's left over me? fuck favoritism!

honestly, i am in need of a serenading place, away from the loud noisy crowd with soft wind blowing. the sun tanning my skin gently. waves crashing the shore. . just me and my reflective book with a glass of apple juice by the side. geee..

k dah. bye.

~~hey person, i just need some answer from you. you're seriously driving me keeraazzyyy.~~

2011-03-24T14:12:00.002+08:00

i teared upon reading this....

thanks mummy. that is really sweet of you.

i love you so much!

2011-03-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

It's time to surrender

It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

2011-03-07T18:57:00.002+08:00

What are words

If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

i didnt mean it this way. im sorry baby....

im such a bitch. i dont know myself anymore...

you have been an awesome one for me. but im not to you.

thank you for everything.....

2011-03-06T12:06:00.004+08:00

Been have loads of queries in my mind. never stop deluding myself. i hate it.

I am changing. Physically and Mentally. My mind. my body and my heart. It really scary. i swear. the fact that i refuse to accept reality just hurts me more. and having insufficient rest definitely doesnt help me settling it. time will reveals more truth but for now, i know im not ready for what is waiting for me. i hope its takes me to the right route.

Taiwan is coming. I have not been running nor climbing. my character for the past few days are just like an animal. i eat. and sleep straight after. my body have not been getting sufficient rest despite staying in a 5star hotel. my mind? even worse! if i have one wish, i will wish for time to stop for awhile and leave it to me alone to write out or explore my own self.; my own thoughts.

what am i going to be in the future? god knows!

did i mention that mark o' brien is theeee cutestt boy ever! hahah. pete williams? pfft. he just makes me wanna fly off to london more.

2011-01-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

i always thought wilfred was my main motivator, educator and role model. & guess what? i was wrong!

it has never been him.. it was her! NURUL NADIAH BTE SAPUAN! she pushed me. encouraged me. advice-d me. support me. all she ever did for me, never once i've complained or whine about. I agree i whine at almost every single thing but amazingly never i whine about this girl. a down to earth girl who claims she dont really share much to anyone. yet i pretty much know her character well enough.

such a pity she has to take her leave when im graduating. when im taking my biggest step in my life. stepping into the adult world. but i know things happen for a reason. if its meant to be, it will really meant to be. & i hope our friendship will really last all the way cause i know a person like you, only comes once in a blue moon. & i treasure it.

i will miss our bad eating junks habit, taking a dip in the school pool, running around school with you pushing me from the back, partner-ing up for badminton and pinnacle. dismount and push jokes and the best of all. planning random pranks on uncle toh or even nadzii. hahah. snapping photos and sneaking junks during our management meeting. pfft. too much to list down.

since i cant thank you during our commissioning, henceforth i hope you will read this.

Thank you nadiah for being there for me throughout my ups and down of life. you make my poly moments enjoyable and definitely make my grooming and growing process a fruitful one. im glad you are there with others to pull me to the right path in my growing stage. you understand me better than i understand myself. i never regret sticking close with you. cause you never failed to give me advice that can pick me up and make me stand firmly on the ground once again. you are really an awesome person. do you know that?

& i 1000000001% sure that YOU will definitely be a successful person! *eveninshorthair*

take care nadiah. and farewell! =)

2010-12-21T23:07:00.003+08:00

i wish i wish i wish that i could end my attachment like nowwwwww so i can flyyyy to ubin and get involve in grad camp!

i wish i wish i wish that i could actually stop coughing even for 15mins. my chest hurt. my throat itch like mad.

but reality harsh. i still have to work my ass off. smiling and pretending that everything is okay even though deep inside im screaming my head off. coming home all fatigue and unproductive.

n ive been coughing for 3 days now. one moment there phlegm and the next it just dry and annoyingly itch to the max. my chest hurt. my heart hurts too. i can bet if i were to take my blood pressure now, it will go beyond 200. not to mention the leaks in my nose. and annoyingly still, it always leak whenever im attending patient. how suck up can that be. pfftt!

best part, i got case study and race passport to hand up end of the month. serve me right for leaving my stuff last min. well how should i know that im going to fall sick. unfair! anyway, not quite in mood now. cough every 5mins. used up half bottle of vicks. and drank like 10000000 galleons of warm water. yucks but still. no choice. pfft! & my pee even turn white! yet the cough never resolve. suck thumb!

goodnight then. i shall just go to sleep and dont bother waiting or hoping any longer.

2010-12-05T18:05:00.002+08:00

one tends to look on people bad side rather than good side when they are are mentally unstable. either in a state of anger or confusion. thus leading them to make rash decision.

that what i've been through for the past few weeks. my mind wasnt stable to make any decision. yet everything keep on pushing me for answer. i got no time to think and analyse the prob. i weigh the bad over the good yet somehow not a single good thing came to mind. & leading me to have an unfair judgement.

i is not happy for myself. that for a definite. im not who i am anymore. i cant think. all the things stored in the capacity of my brain went off in a *poof!*

thank god there was a group of people whom i met everyday put a smile to my face. regards them being sick or even having restricted movement, their smiles make me smile. their laughters brought tears to my eyes. the innocent look of their eyes. appreciating me in every single ways. entertaining me through singing, dancing, holding my hand and move to the grooves or even just verbal conversation even when they are exhausted. they are indeed my superheroes. the one that pulls me out from the hurricanes. hence never underestimate the power of elderly. even when they are sick. their determination is way stronger than us.

when i left the care centre. i shook hands with most of them. i hugged others as well. they definitely lifted up my load. i missed them already.

nevertheless, i think i suck it up big time for my geron attachment. all the ques imposed on me never have an answer to it. so what can you say before i take a step to my prcp. hahah. well none other than GOODLUCK NASY! =))

ps: anyone want to date me for a run swim or even climb? im getting so unhealthy. i can feel it in my bones.

2010-12-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

if i told you i was perfect, i'll be lying

if there's smtg im not doing, boy, im trying

i know im not angel, but im not so bad

My BATMAN!

2010-11-07T00:29:00.006+08:00

Where can you get someone who is willing to stick right beside you despite you having some real contagious illness such as conjunctivitis?

Well this is the only person on earth i ever known who is willing to do so.

me: sayang, what if you get my conjunctivitis? it very very painful you know.

him: then what should i do?

me: let not meet up till i recover. a week or so.

him: no baby. i will not leave you alone. now dont talk so much and come apply your eye drop.

he stayed over few nights sleeping in my living room. distract me from the pain & itch. applying my eye drops during the day & snores at night. keeping me companied all day long. cook my favourites.

and till the day i recovered, he was still there for me. all the times. i can never thank you enough sayang!!

though sadly, he really got the conjunctivitis. & he is definitely not tolerating it well. haiz. be strong dear! sadly i wont be able to do what you had done for me. unless i want to be chopped off by both of our parents. yet, no worries! i'll still be calling you up for the medication times. hope you get well veryyyy soooon!

baby, you are my fireworks!

2010-10-20T12:06:00.002+08:00

to be the only neutral one. to be the only moderator. to be the only mediator.

one hell of a tough job. after all, im still a growing teens with lots of raging emotions.

not fair!

2010-10-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

day passes. minutes & seconds too!

each day was a battle

against all odds.

i swear i tried my best

yet things not going my way

yet i swear i make the best out of it

though inside me torn bit by bit

a fake smile is easy to show

externally & not internally

one day, you will face the big blow

and explode like a jelly

fuck pms. (i think?)

2010-10-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

& no. im never going to change my wallpaper.

true beauty.

ps: i have no intention to make anyone jealous or feel awkward.

i swear!

fantastic n.

2010-10-06T22:40:00.006+08:00

I'm confused, I think, I really don't know.
Searching all these days for where I should go.
Am I mad, am I sad? Should I even feel glad?
Whatever happened to the happiness I had?
I feel like something is missing in my life.
How can I go on, with all of this strife?

I really don't know, just how I should feel.
Am I dreaming or awake? I don't know what's real.
I try to tell people, but the words won't come out.
I feel so frustrated, I just wanna shout.
I feel like an angel who has no more wings.
I feel like a man who has forgotten his dreams.
But then I see your face and I finally know.
That what I'm missing in life is the smile you show.
for now I'm happy with you as my friend.
And I hope that our friendship will never end...

have been deluding myself recently. 3/4 of the year have past and im still as doubtful as ever with my own credibility.

i hate how my brain works when im tired. how much i wished it will just knock itself off and make me go to some deeep sleep and wake up afresh. that will definitely be smtg good for me.

i swear i miss spending time with you people like crazy! just relax. gossiping about everything under the sun. eating junks. laughing till we cry. the moment where we know we definitely got one another back. i may have noh by my side all the time but i never once had any intention of neglecting you people. i may not be good in express myself verbally when it comes to be cheesy. but i sure do know the alternatives. & i swear this come directly from the bottom of my heart. i miss you .............! you people are those i wish i can grow up with all the way. selfish it may sound. but my heart chose it that way. nevertheless, thank you. for everything you ever done for me. i love you guys! =)

n i hate attachments. it always drives my happiness away.

for you, i will

2010-09-29T10:48:00.002+08:00

Yes baby...

we shall buzz like a honey bees

hectic life. rash decisions. bad conclusion

2010-09-19T01:16:00.004+08:00

searching for the lights high and low

didnt realise i miss it so

sitting down with my ego

makes me feel like letting everything go

im stumped like an injured bee.

& confused as a lost child

i miss receiving surprises. =(

2010-09-10T01:48:00.002+08:00

im extremely drained out! i clean my room upon waking up. sis wanted to throw the book wardrobe so i cleared it out while she sleeps. ok fine. dont really blame her. i understand that she had a pretty early paper. yet, wow! she sleeps like a log! she woke up only at 5 in the evening while i was just about to put my butt on the sofa for a while.

but nahh. she give me literally 5 mins before asking me to do this. do that. help this. help that. then after breaking of fast, she continued throwing things out of the room. and especially my stuff, she throw straight into the black thrash bag. how nice right? ALL my sentimental stuff, she throw away. she cant be bothered. it like she dont have a heart to know it pretty sentimental stuff. all she do was to throw throw throw ALL my stuff away. then she order order ordered me here and there. picking up stuff where she can actually pick it up herself and everything. wanna know why? cause she want to finish fast so she can actually go out with her bf to geylang. ass! i even had some tearing of skin on my leg. TWICE! adoiiiii...

then after cleaning my room, approximately around 11pm, mum was hinting about me not making the cornflakes chocolate. feeling half dead, i did the entire big box she bought for me. and i just finish it like 10mins ago. plus the washing part. danial cooked cheese stick and used realll lots of utensil. and he left it in the sink to be magically washed.

& so i did the cornflakes all ALONE in the kitchen. mum slept cause she cooked dinner for us today after work hence tired. dad wasnt really that friendly today. boy always talking to the gf on the phone while danial, after cooking, he sat in the living room and watch tv all the way. nat? oh dont mention her.

sooo, that shows how excited my family is for raya. im too exhausted to even think of celebrating it in the later part of the day. all i want to do now is *faints*

till then, SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL!! =)) minta maaf ye klau tersilap kata dan tersinggung hati anda. yang sudah tu sudah dan harap bleh bermula baik segala lagi!

2010-09-01T03:20:00.005+08:00

it going to be 4 in the morning and im on my bed with a bucket of tears.

the most touching story i ever watch.

& for a definite, it taught me great lesson.

It not a fairytale ending and neither it goes too good to be true kind.

That is really a good definition of love.

baby. despite you're not being my first bf but honey, i got to admit. you are my first love. the one i shared all my happy and sad times together. the one im very proud to say that is my bf. the one that gives me the strength to stand tall. the one that also makes me not to be afraid to fall cause i know he will be there for me. you make me crazy. crazy in love. yet at the same time, you make me move on in life. you may not be the best. yet you are perfect in your own ways and you fit perfectly in my life. i love the way you hold me. i love the way you hug me. i love the way you caress my hair with affection and giving a peck on my huge forehead at the same time. & i love the way you look right into my eyes and whisper the three perfect words.

even though i may not say i love you as often as you do. i may not look into your eyes all the time. i may not publicize my love for you in public. creating a blog just for you and not sharing it with the world. privatizing this blog. not wanting to say the three words nor hugging in public. and a whole lot more, but i just want you to know that YOU have definitely make a great impact in my life. i always says anything might happen to us in the future but honey, i know for sure, i never regret bringing you out on 5 june 2009. i never regret taking that big step. i never regret every single moment spent with you. yes we had terrible fights. so bad till it pains to think about it. tear-ing day and night. but baby, we are over that. we overcome that challenges cause i now believed that despite our love may not blaze like a year ago but our care and compassion for one another is still there. we need each other. i dont want a couple ring from you. i dont want money from you. i dont want surprises from you. all that i need is your love. your sincerity. your care.

& so i hope you will grasp my hands all the way throughout our journey of life...

cause i know i will never lose the grip i have on you.

i love you mohammad noh bin abdul rahman!

Good luck dripes

2010-08-30T07:16:00.004+08:00

I want a rich bf

I want a romantic bf

I want a smart bf that can challenge me back

I want a bf that can gives me lots of surprises

I want a bf that have car so we dont have to take public transport

But!....

My bf is not rich

My bf is not romantic

My bf always gives in to me

My bf claims he sucks at planning

My bf have license but no transportation.

Somehow,....

My bf could not give me what i want

Yet he ALWAYS give me what i need

& that is as just important

Baby you're just as awesome as you are now

So dont give up on yourself.

It the last hurdles. Jump high and get wayyy over it

& dont be afraid to fall cause you know im always there behind you

giving you the support as much as you need

(biase ah bro. da train kat gym ni!)

YOU can do it md. noh!

-the man with big sexy hairy legs!

Gue cinta kamu sangat bangat!

2010-08-25T20:52:00.002+08:00

A girl was asked for a movie date by her 'guy-friend'. thinking it was just another movie with him, she agrees. & so they met up on that day and they catch an evening movie. When the show ends, it wa already dark. The guy brought the girl to a park. blind-folded. walked for quite a distance and they come to a halt.

When the girl unfold her blinds, she was greeted with glimering lights. The whole path was lit with small candles. As she walks down the lighted aisle, there at the end of the path, candles arranged in a big heart shape. In the center of the heart, there was 2 box. Big and small. she was told to open the big one first. in there, a couple swatch watch lays beautifully. then she open the small one. and yup, in there was a couple ring. as she turns around to face the guy, the guy already on his knees with a bouqet in his hand. he took the ring from her and he asked for steady. of course, there in the center of the heart, she agrees and they start a new life together. as bf n gf of course. heheh.

sweet isnt it? sounds like a fairytale but its a fact! they are actually friends of my sis. and all the candles arranged and such are done by my sis and the rest of their friends. i can never forget this cause i witness the whole set up. by pictures of course. hehe. but yea. it like any girl dreams to have such thing happen.

& so what makes me post up this? Blame yog. it just spelt b-o-r-e-d-o-m! we were tooooo bored till ladies, being ladies start to gossip and talk. literally talked for like whole 5hours. then the other 2 ladies was talking about how they bug their bf for rings and how the guy presented to them. then this sweet incident came to my mind.

and they say, diamonds is woman best friend. either im not a woman or that theory just sucks!

2010-08-11T14:06:00.004+08:00

im having wayyy too much fun nowadays. with the awesome bunch of people! as what nadiah mentioned, what a memorable way to end our schooling life. (since i will be on attachment all the way) and to mentioned that it was my anniversary with the boy too! =))))

first day of fasting. and i already looking forward to raya for the kuih!!! yummeh! n n im craving for waffle ice cream like nowwww..

2010-07-24T13:09:00.003+08:00

i planned a zillion things to do at home on the Saturday. & yet, the stupid cramps just have to attack hence making me only wants to roll around on my bed.

ystd was filling! gorging down on seoul garden. just with the fantastic four. nutella cake was power gedegak for me. and with bloated tummy, rushed down to the theatre and watch the sourcerer apparentice. intended to play arcade but plans change. the nad square gotta go home. the boy and me roam around malls and end up doing this. oh well. its all his doing, i bought it for him and he do it for me. =)))

i want to go chaletttt!! but i feel odd going alone there. nyehehe. with all their aunts and uncle. im quite a shy person you know. XP

N yes. im done with my bday celebration. the 3 ns bday celebration went successful. now left with my dear one that is across the oceans. HONG YUE FENG! one month more! =)

ps: im in love with james morrison and his songs. especially 'you give me something'.. melttsss...

2010-07-21T20:41:00.003+08:00

though im not having the stupid fever but this is wayyyy worse than anything else! my head feel like bursting! n my limbs are all numb. im just like floatinggg aimlessly. n the cough just add on to that throbing head.

n despite all these, my stupid farking grp member is not doing his part of project till now! even when it suppose to present tmwr. urgh!! it just adds on. great!

i just feel like crying. cry real much so my pain will flow down with the tears. and tiredness all bygone. im begging you for merrrrcyyyy!!

friday come quick!! so that i can just lock myself up in the my room and rot.

2010-07-18T00:37:00.005+08:00

"I miss the scent of banana boat sun tan lotions
I miss starting my day with the sound of water gushing
I miss playing around with the LG behind my kiosk
I miss those time...
I really really do...
(best of all, i miss the load sum of money i have every 7th of the month)"

Nadzii & Nadiah. I hope you guys enjoyed your bday this year though the celebrations of individual bday is slightly different. but i hope the magical memories can last till next bday. =))

Ps: Always remember, i take my beloved one's birthday very seriously.
Noh: done-d, Magical plus Fairytale happy ending
Nadzii: just over. hope you like what is being planned. simple but with many lovesssss just like you wish for earlier before..
as for Nadiah.... nyehehehhe... i believe last year make a great impact. even your mom was shock. hah! this year, finger cross! hahah!

2010-07-13T16:36:00.002+08:00

can i travel around the world with entire ADC?

but on certain countries, i just want to travel with my 3 favourite person on earth.

can i ? may i?

*plansaftergraduating*

2010-07-11T19:35:00.003+08:00

My cat ate my banana cake! what type of cat eats fruits anyway? w-e-i-r-d. & so im back from the wedding function. met up with my pri sch ladiesss. its been 3 friggin years since i last met them. though i didnt really stayed behind with them that long. dislike the part where they start to talk about me being in poly and such where they are ite people? come on mann.. friends dont speak to one another like that dont they? & the fact that they lit a cigarette like it was a tap water and me choking onto their smoke? nahhh.. i want to have a long life. somehow, we have a love hate relationship among us all these while. cool huh? hahha.

and so the most mesmerizing thing about the wedding was the wedding stage. they had a carpet grass with lots of roses attach to it. pretty simple yet serene... i told the others that if i want to marry, i shall put an artificially waterfall (waterfountain) behind. so all the makciks n neneks will melata if the water sprinkle on them when phototaking and all the kids will just concentrate on the waterfall and left the camera all to my husband and me. so sweeettt. hahahah! k that was mean. my kebaya was really lose! i was stunned. i thought i gain some kg but then, jeng jeng jeng... MAGIC! XP i like. i wore nat heels and end up getting blisters. tsk! n n n i really fancy all white apparels reall load. not to mention half of my wardrobe are filled with white tops. i prefer white than black. not that i like black though.

all exams cleared now. hopefully no subs uh. i just want to graduate and get over with schools. but that also mean im graduated from my dear dear darling sweetheart ADC. i definitely want to pass my post down but i still want to be part of adc, which with no doubt, i think i will still be part of it though the percentage lesser a little? yay! hehh.

ok. im getting bored and sleepy. i got presentation tmwr and i only got like 3 slides? wtf?! but nvm. as long i present well, will do. okay. i shall go watch tv now.

ps: the top pic is to show what the booy did for our 11months. the board on top right with my name on it. i really really really really really really like it ALOT! if only the board doesnt reeks of the sprays and paint, i would bring it everywhere i go. but apparently it stinks my whole bag and books. pfft!
& the bottom pic is the incomplete mural he did on nat wall. it suppose to be on my wall but my side of room is too packed. with tables, bookshelves and dressing table. not fair!

2010-07-11T13:18:00.005+08:00

& so i figured running away from a problem is not the solution. i rather face it all the way and get numb over it. and it will be a small peanuts for you. i used to hate a person. but i keep on reading the person blog. often and always. and now, the person is just like a tet to me. another human being? who cares what happen? thou i know i have the most wonderful people around me. it all about getting numb. im not really sure how healthy that is? pfftt..

ps: though i admit i still run away from certain problem. heh. it dependsss.

"having too much of something in you is not good. and too little is not good either"

i realised i've lost all my competitive spirit in me. all i want is just a layback situation. now in my mind it always says no point being competitive. but then, i missed the old me where if i want it, i really compete all the way. now i become so much of a cry baby and lazyness is overpowering me. pfftt! nasy shall fight back! get active while still on junks!

ok. so today is really a lazy sunday. i got a wedding to attend but im still laying in bed. i need to go granma hse but im too bummed to take the lonnnnggg bus journey. i want to stay at home the whole day and play left 4 dead or just you-tubing or facebook-ing or just zzzz-ing all the way. brr..

ystd i had cornetto. did i mention it was awesome?! it all bcause im craving for b&j but i was stuck at home cleaning the room. so get the cheaper version yet still expensive? hehehe..

k im in a rush now. will update again later.

2010-06-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

today wasnt much productive. only thing im satisfied with was the condition of the clubroom. cleaning it up with the beauuuuuutifull ladies.

then off for some cca meeting. had dinner with the ladies again and began to rot in the room.

i didnt study as plan. and i cant get my mind off the jerangkang team too. hahah. n each time i think back today, i can smile and chukle to myself.

We screamed at each other. We hit each other. We eat together. We stoned together. We were angry at each other for reminding one another about how miserable we were for not going to jerangkang. And yet we are the ones comforting each other. haha. just whattt are we up too? i have no idea but i definitely feel the loveeeeeee from the sisters! thanks for the awesome companion babes. hehe.. =))

since ystd i had some difficulty in sleeping. today, im back to my own bed and im very exhausted from stoning and cleaning up the room. mind cant really concentrate on any of my modules. pfft! so yea. nasy off to bed now then. zzzzzing aawayyy.. tmwr i shall climb and sweat everything out. let nadzii smell my armpits. nyehehehe..

oh man. can i really not study? :/

2010-06-22T22:14:00.003+08:00

My heart melts upon listening to this song. thanks to the two nads. n if only the boy could have such melancholy voice and sing this to me.

TRY
Asher Book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

but on second thought, nvm la. if the boy sings, i will be rolling away on the floor clutching my stomach laughing. heheh. k thats mean. sing to me boy. sinnnnggggggg.. n you see what my reaction is for you. nyehehhehe. =))

im telling to the whole world now (yes im exaggerating though i know i privatised this blog) but yea. i really appreciate your never give up attitude on me. im just being greedy and impatient. maybe that is why i never be slim. too greedy. heh!
thank you dear for EVERYTHING! but i still want you to sing for me can? this song? please please please! *pussinbootseyes*

2010-06-22T02:05:00.002+08:00

it 2 freaking am and my eyes are still wide awake. and my dear nadzii have to add on by mentioning, it so not nasyita jumari! thank babe. well im pretty amazed myself. or maybe im just pretending to be. deep down, i know im actually waiting for smtg which i know wont happen. sam was right. my expectations are too high for people.

it been long since i want to post this out but somehow i rather keep it in me all the way till for one whole week, all i could do was losing saltwater. and sadly, instead of sharing it out properly with my dear one, i pressurized on him even more. which is by just shutting myself up and cry to myself. im really sorry baby... you got fed up with me. i totally understand now. im angry at myself too apparently..

you know why?

i grew up independently. by 9 or 10 yrs old, i no longer have a domestic helper in the house. mom n dad are busy working. and the siblings are left to grow up alone. im not saying i dont get enough attention from my parent or what. i got lots of it. dinner together. sunday family day. eating meals at some place randomly. to say, i got the most attention from my parent among other sibling cause i dont have the heart to say no to them. so they get used to the fact that i will always be there. im not complaining nor whining. but im just trying to show how independently i grew up since childhood onwards. my mom believed in letting her kids be independent and wont rely on people. but i guess for me, it didnt turn out that well. you know as they say too much of something is not good. i got too much of that independent on me. since young, i dont really depends on my friends, boys or anyone. i live in my own world. i would lie if i say im not eyeing on any boys when young. but i never bother to work for such stuff. n i dont know why. the only thing i bothered to work for was my prefectorial post. group leader. monitor. camp leader. just name it. these are the only thing i was eyeing for. post. status. n once i got it, i took it seriously till even when i was a kid, i know how to draw a line between friend and my job/task. that shows how disciplined i was. it was scary. really scary cause i get to always be the teacher pets. and friends start to loosen up from me one by one. and yes, unfortunately all these happen throughout both pri n sec sch. independent. discipline. it outgrew the bubbly girl i was suppose to be. my love life? dont bother mentioning it. a complete failure.

so when it comes to tertiary, i promise to myself everything would turn out differently. i had enough of friends running away from me. i had enough of growing alone. i start to think of my future. n i began working on it. when i enter ADC, i wasnt expecting anything from it. i only want to have a cca to keep me active. n also because i followed a friend in. i was known as the emo girl and such and people keep on mentioning about it. i will just say some stuff or just smile but honestly, i dont like to be reminded of it cause it will just remind me of my past. about being all alone and independent again. but i take it with a pinch of a salt. not too much. then i met this really amazing boy. soo amazing that i did not expect him to change my entire life. yes i know i was gugugaga over him ever since we first met in an expedition. but i just take it like a normal high school crush. but god willingness, i suddenly have soo much courage which i never existed in me to plan out a bday and went out on a date with him. just like that. it went as a breeze and from there, my entire soul was cleanse and refresh button was ejected. i began to see the beauty of lovely life. full with hearts and flowers. not just desk, papers and pen. didnt know that hugs and kisses are some pretty sparks to add onto your grey life. the boy actually brings in colours to my life. n the butterfly in the stomach feelings. i felt blessed with him by my side. we are inseparateable. n i for once cannot breath on my own lungs. his silence grasp all my oxygen away and i began to wither. and as we go along the way tgt hands in hands, i was given back some part of my history which i thought i've crushed it. i got the presidential post. i promised the boy i wont go around and be bossy or whatsoever. n deep inside, i cross my finger and really hope so. i dont wish for history to repeat itself. and guess what? i broke that promise and i open back the chapters of my life in the early days. it hard to control that strong desire of independent and discipline. it like the base of my life. i grew from being that. then at one point of stage, the boy voice it out. i was really hurt by his comment. though i know its the truth but somehow paranoid began to overcome me. my brains are constantly thinking. be it relevant or not. and whatever im thinking seems to become real. i just hate how im analysing things. i really do.

but despite all this downpour, have i mention i still got some lovely things happen? i still have my dears friends around me. though some may drifted away but they come back once in a while. how much more can i ask more? but all i know that i will always have these 4 AMAZING people in my life! my baby. my aussie girl. and the both nads! i relied wayyy to much on you people. i overused your listening ear to hear my whines and complains. esp for the babes, how much i curse and swear and got weaken each time im in disputes with the boy. it frustrating for me too cause i dont like to fight but i just got irritated. in actual fact, i guess the boy mistake are just a small percentage but somehow, that attitude of mine which i really hate make things go haywire. constant analysing and such. urgh. two words. big fuck!

despite all these long post, i lost galleons of water again, (cause it reminds me of the boy and how far he is from me now.) im still as confused as ever. im moving my life as it is. and now as mentioned to nadzii, i will get sleepy. like finally.

it 2.50 now. n im missing my boy real much. his hugs and laughter. and all his goodnight texts and cheeky voice. haiz. either i will be too weak or i will be too discipline. i guess i deserve this sad moments alone cause i make rash decisions and to have fighting with him for the past week and him leaving this week make things even worse since we just reconcil and dont really have much of our own time alone. our own quiet time tgt pondering upon the sky.

haiz. nasy oh nasy. time changes everything and everyone. so stop wishing so much and just live life as it is! brrrrr!

goodnight earthlings! n i bet the jerangkang team have arrived! rest well n take care people!!

2010-06-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

Im all alone in an air-condition room
All i could ever wish for right now
Is your warm hug, shoulders to lie on and you playing with my hair
constant kissing of my forehead
and whispering I LOVE YOU many times to my ears

Baby, though its not the first im left behind
Somehow somewhat, this time i really feel the pinch
Only 3 hours apart n yes dear,
IM MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY!

Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky Are like shooting stars I could really use a wish right now...

2010-06-03T22:31:00.003+08:00

MOHAMMAD NOH IS TURNING 21!!!
O.M.G!

"baby let me love you down
there's so many ways to love ya
baby i can break you down
there's so many ways to love ya
i mean like, ooh my gosh i'm so in love
i found you finally, it make me want to say
I LOVE YOU!"

=))

ps: dear god, pls let nurul nadiah bte sapuan have a speeeedyy recover cause it feel weird knowing she is not well and so she can hand in her essay quick also! HAHA..
get well soon babe! ILYtoo!

& give all the confidence you can give to my dearest twinnie too! give her the faith. the power. an encourager. the confidence. pleasee.. pretty pleaseeee..

err. is it just too much god? :/

2010-05-18T18:49:00.004+08:00

staying at home the whole day together with the boy spells out awesome! wake up, tv-ing, cooked chicken curry with several side toppings and eat it straight after, clean the house slightly. internet surfing, the boy playing with my hair till i fall asleep and he follow suit, make the house messy back again, eat more seaweed chicken and karipap and off he goes for a meeting in school.

you promised me this week will be last time you skipped your class. next week onwards, i will be your wake up call and trust me baby, you will be in school wayyyy earlier than you can imagine! nyehehehhe... =))

sidetrack, I've been feeling weird and uncomfortable recently. my stomach, my back and my head. even when i poo, it felt different? and being in the health care profession is sooooo not helping! it scares me even more!! And seeing lots of funeral around add on to my never ending negative thinking. goodness. come on ppl, make me laugh more till i forget what is happening to me. nadzii!! my partner in doing nonsense thing. you have been a real awesome friend/companion/listener for the past few weeks! and your sister, well she is wayy beyond words! heheh. the trio who makes my days happier than anything. fyi, i really really appreciate you guys with every inch of my heart. loves many many. hehhe. ok now i sound like im dying. hahaha. choi choi. *touchwood* i got veryy weirrrdddd thinking indeed. tsk!

ps: dear ms brain, will you start working so i can start doing my ass-ay? pretty pleaseeeee...

i love you very the beri much matrep! =)

2010-05-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

tormented and torn apart!

i can no longer be that strong girl anymore.

numb is conquering me.

i've cried

galleons of it

but nothing seems to be working.

this sucks!

2010-05-01T14:06:00.003+08:00

a b-e-a-u-tifooooll picture for SOME people. congrats for making my life miserable. if that was your real intention or simply you just an asshole! stop being so pathetic and trying soooo hard to get the attention. you pushed, kicked and slapped me. but guess what? it over! i had enough.

i thought by changing myself to be lenient and nice goody goody girl cause i hold to a belief where treat everyone like how you want to be treated. but somehow you guys mistook that changed of mine! thus bossy or not, guess what people? that is what i am! and it not called bossy, it call FIRM! everyone is born with a certain level of discipline. unfortunately, mine is quite high. now, you guys all seem to overwrites me. here i am trying my best to blend in two worlds together and yet some peoplee are justtttt there to make it even harder. so you like it or not, you better stop adding the fuel to the fire. and those who justttt love to talk so much yet being contradict to yourself, just shut the f*** up la.

& for you bitch! it time you learn the meaning of R-E-S-P-E-C-T! stop boasting and order around. SHE is MY friend. and i care for her. so stop destroying her with your words and action. else i'll never stop shooting you down.

2010-04-25T17:45:00.002+08:00

now i understand why..

babyyyyyy... =DD

2010-04-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

i love nadzirah nadiah and noh. the 3 n's. my dearest bb. period.
ps, to those i never mention, you still have a special place in my heart too!

pss, i cant believed i stay at bf work from 7 till closing. approximately midnight! just because he love to be watched during work and have company while he eats. n that is how he define romantic. -.-... heheh.

you're awesome baby. =)

2010-04-18T22:29:00.003+08:00

i had the most fruitful holidays ever.

ocbc to d'camp
taiwan to attachment
awesome picnic! to some paramedic course and get to be in tv!!

& the song goes, i drive myself crazy, i drive myself crazyyy....

also, i had a great lesson learnt during these bussyyyy holidays which really wakes me up.
even though galleons of tears shed. but i really appreciate that wake up call.

and best of all, not forgetting those wonderful n precious outings i had with my only lover.. heh!

he is trying so hard not to peek to the camera..

vain boy! hehe

ps: i want more picnic with nadiah n nadzii!! n n my dad actually point out nadzii as me! feewiittt. compliment siaa.. hahah. nadzii! we are twins! but ya im the bigger version! XP

pss: i want outing with natasha hussin n shikin sulaiman!

2010-04-13T21:34:00.003+08:00

Gerhana meliputi segala
Tiada lagi sinaran cahaya
Keinginan tanpa kepastian
Tak mampu rasanya ku teruskan
Ku meneruskan...

Biarlah ku relakan segala
Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Mengapa...
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Tak akan pernahku akui kalah

Masih terdampar ku disini
Tiada jalan mungkinku lalui
Harusnya hidupku dipersenda
Mengharungi dugaan melanda
Ku berserah...

Biarlah ku relakan segala
Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Mengapa...
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Tak akan pernahku akui kalah

Tuhanku ku relakan segala
Takkan pernahku akui kalah
Percayaku yakin padanya
Dia yang menentukan semua
Ku berserah...

i give up. it the final destination n i resign it to fate. im afraid to do anything now. the old me is dead and gone... n hopefully the new me regain..

n im talking crapdunk. you guys wont understand anyway. life short. live it.

2010-04-08T17:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 8TH MONTHSARRY!

& THE BLOOPERS ONE....

it really the sweetest & loveliest 8 months.

& i got to admit. the brownies were awesome!!

esp for a 1st timer.

proudly to say w/o any help

though called kak ya for tips.

hahah.

thank you boy..

ILYVM!!!

=))

ps: it reminds me of your cheekyness on 07-08-09.
that bouqet of red roses.

2010-03-30T20:11:00.005+08:00

a month from the last entry. 10 days ago, i came back from taiwan. n yet i still refuse to blog down anything. now im blogging half heartedly and half eyes close. n i have no idea why am i doing so.

taiwan was awesome. and yes i know im selfish in words. but my brains just refuse to flow out all the describing words to express that expedition. too many things happens. positive n negative. and yes. currently my heart wants to share everything out but my brains refuse to. bleargh!

recently i have this withdrawal-from-everything feeling. i just want serenity to blanket me. i got sensitive easily. my brain are always debating with every single thoughts. it felt like all the energy in me was being drained out. bit by bit. im exhausted. thankfully the boy is always there as my companion. never complains nor give up on me despite the distance travelled daily. constantly showing me patience regardless of any situation. thank you sooooo much!

ok. apparently, my whole system is shutting down. everything refused to flow out. i figured. im exhausted with the dumb attachment. that why.

k nasy is emo-ing. zzzzzz. stupid! hasta la vista!

2010-03-01T15:00:00.003+08:00

so im bored. all alone at home. & simply too bummed to attend training later on. but i still have to go. for my own benefits. gosh! im having nightmares these few days each time my memory is flooded by nadiah stories in taiwan. its like im in for some deep s***.

stamina oh stamina. why do you dislike me so much? pfftt!

im going to miss my family. firstly mummy n nat are not sending me off as they are at jakarta. dan is in phizer. boy is like at nanny house i assume. thus left daddy which with no doubt will only leave me once at the carpark. arrgghhh. how depressing can this be. it going to be freakin 9 days man. and it farrr away in taiwan n not malaysia.phewww... breatheeeee nasyy! thank god im not alone!! which was the initial plan due to lack of places for other members. yay to uncle toh! for fighting to add more people from adc! now i got the boy by my side and many many other! nadzii!! haidar!! faris!! leong!! JON!!! weeeee.... but yea. im going to miss my family. awww. gosh! i sound-ed like im off to another country for like a year or so? pfftt!

anywayyyy, this week is a chillax session. time for me to organise back my adc stuff. settle everything before im off to taiwan. oh wait. should i say before ocbc? cause im going to be lifeless once ocbc starts. sleepless lifeless zombie like soul. so here i shall beg nadiah sapuan and idah for giving me a chance to rest in your mega room! pretty pleaseeeeee.. i dont mind sleeping on the floor. i need my 3 hours sleep. pls pls pls pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee... :):):):)

then next will be dcamp. so instead of being a grp leader which i wanted, i got games master instead. nasyita the game master?! for real? well yea. it doesnt really suit together doesnt it? but i got to try my best though for my people. aisey! haha. well yea. from a courtesy crew leader, whose job is only to stand around and aid people around the area, to a games master. woah! that a drastic change isnt it? a magnanimous truly. hahah.. righttt.. -.-

oh my. how i really wish money would fall from the sky. i figured each time when march is approaching, from mid feb onwards, i will really face a downfall in economy. hah! speaking like a businesswoman. but yea! last year was mt kinabalu moments. yet at the end of the expedition, everything was pretty worth it. so i hope this taiwan would just be the same.

alright then. im in the cant-be-bothered-to-do-anything zone. till then i shall update after longg longg timeee. =)

2010-02-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

Exams over.. feeeeewwwwiiitt!!
(alhamdullilah i can do 4 out of 5 paper)

but gee. here goes my busy schedule all over.
a week of holiday and then events begins pouring everywhere. just dont make me list down all the dates. you gonna be freak out. like totally. pfftt!

and hey, saw a junior-of-mine blog. the way he type out his post with every ending about his lover. it really defines short SWEET n simple. i was all smile upon reading it. hahah. it VERY rare to find guys talking about his girl in a blog? awwww. im proud of him. after so long dudeeee.

fyi, i got scratch upon flying a kite today by a decent looking thorns! that why they say look can be deceiving.

& oh i love you hong yue feng! take care when flying offffff!

k off to bed now. tmwr briefing at 9am! -.-

2010-02-14T16:20:00.003+08:00

i miss THESE moments....

2010-02-13T18:01:00.002+08:00

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who would lies under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or to stay awake just to watch you sleep....wait for the boy who kiss on your forehead, who wants to show off to the world when you are in sweat, who holds your hand infront of his friends, who think you're just as pretty without make up on. one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... the one who turns to his friends and says, that her.."

baby. its you all along.

i love you sweetheart.

2010-02-13T13:49:00.003+08:00

i used to enjoy myself going to brass basah

and see all those amazing arts which i never know the existence

and the use of it.

Yet now, that place reminds me of smtg bad

& i hate it alot

but i still want to get the alphabet blocks for my room. geee..

2010-02-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

i've been having weird feelings in me. somehow it felt like my heart pumps weirdly. or maybe the valve aint closing properly. but whatever the case is, it making me paranoid! people around me. please please please learn cpr just in case. hah! k i think im really getting paranoid. ECG pls someone!

2010-01-28T20:07:00.001+08:00

One Big Family

First Lady

& so who say being the first lady was fun and nice? oh wait. pardon me. im the second lady. first lady will always be kamaliana. the super magnificient women. heh. nasy such a sweet talker. -.-"

and so im stuck in creating my speech. and too lazy to continue doing it. and guess what? i still cant believe i succeed this far. nyehehe. so mat noh? dont you think i deserve something baby? *cough*vector*cough*

haha. k im bored. that why. and im going to miss nadiah bte sapuan. though you still have 6 more months. things going to be different i think with SOME people. heheh. but still i love you too kak/nek ya. i think now can be moyang ya. hahahah

till then! =)

2010-01-17T21:02:00.007+08:00

Grand Hyatt family dinner
10/01/10

a family gathering cum daddy birthday dinner. a splendid evening with a surprise attendance of my dearest bf. and all of us went home with a bloated tummy and wide grin especially me! i almost die out of shock seeing bf sitting at the table with my aunts n uncles smilling sheepishly when i come. that mischevious boy.

Danny 1 yr old b'day party

ystd went to my niece danny, 1 year birthday party. theme: army(black&green). the party was done in a grand way. at the void deck it is. food was amazing as usual. games was such an entertainment. boy n bf enter the game where they were suppose to do 100 push up n sit up and drink those army 1.5 bottle. and who do you think is the winner?! yet again, mohammad noh did it. hahah. he won himself a billabong shirt and cap. and after that game, he was burping all the way. but didnt stop him from having second round of food. oh did i mention that noh was disguising as boy's friend during the whole party. haha. and everyone doesnt even bother asking about him as he stick with boy the whole way. hahaha. and maybe due to his similarity in size. i bet they will faint knowing his age. =))

Night time, we head to changi to fish. no luck unlike the other time. when we fish, each fishing rod was like 1 metre away from each other. it was too crowded. and dad claim that fishes in changi are smart. they ate your worms/prawns and swim away quickly. as my dad and bro busy engross in their fishing and zidan busy trying hard to bury his rod stick in the sands and making it stand, noh and i had nice time star gazing. it was a clear sky and filled with thousands of glimering stars. so who say you cant have a nice time with your bf when your family is around? i think we did it pretty well.
& noh manage to capture my dear zidan heart. amazing. zidan dont usually go to strangers but yea. he was disturbing noh all the way during fishing. smart boy.

and that was all about my weekends for the past two weeks. i didnt even have time to see all my other friends. luckily noh bonds well with my family. else i guess i dont even have chance to meet him at all. and finally! one week left of attachment. im soo exhausted. actually not really uh. haha. i just want my time back with adc. i miss it soo much. and and hong yue feng! our dinner date is still not forgotten.

oh shit. end of attachment means 3 due projectss coming right upp. and exam!!! yikes!!

ps, i feel like climbing again. top rope pls.

goodnight earthlings! time for me to go to bed. i love you guysss. hahah.. & i just got to say this,

GOODLUCK NADIAH SAPUAN FOR YOUR AVVENTURA RACE!!!!
im sure you can do it babe with your current enthusiasm. whatever it is, treasure every moment of it and be glad you had done ur best.

k i crap too much. geee...

2010-01-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

hoho. anytime soon nasy. gosh!
bring in the diet plans and exercise regime people.
i shall train back all over sooon.
right after attachment it shall be. heh

2010-01-11T23:34:00.003+08:00

im tired. im super hungry. & the smell of a person faeces is still stuck in my head. seriously, i think im growing weak mentally during this attachment.

and to add on, i might not be able to make it for OBT! #*$&%@&@$&#(!! its fucking sickening cause i got the fucking attachment on that fucking week! urgh! im totally pissed.

what a news!

2010-01-10T01:14:00.005+08:00

sentosa outing with love. i had the most sweetest, romantic, funniest, whackiest n enjoyment day out after a week of horrible attachment with cough n flu. gosh. thanks dear... :))

only a week of attachment n im missing school and my bunch of rascal real lot. pfftt!

oh wait. feng is being missed too!

im tired and i still feel the waves. awesome. hahah.

goodnight! =))

2010-01-07T22:52:00.005+08:00

the lady is warded and the man comes by daily listening to her whines and attending to all her needs. massaging her head n hands. holding her hands and supporting her as she take small steps to the loo. bringing her home herbal drinks. isnt that very adorable n sweet. each time it happens, i began to ponder. will that happen to me in the future? oh boy i hope so! =))

ps: thank you love for droping by everyday and be my nurse throughout the whole week. you too have been sweet enough to give me my medicine all the time, applying vicks here n there and also those constant massaging. THANK YOU!
i love you dearly too bf!

2009-12-29T16:45:00.005+08:00

the rush is here again. projects (which i never submitted nor even do to say from the due date), attachment, studies. pfftt! tiring mann.. the thought of thousand of things needed to be done just demoralise even more.

and now. yippee me. im in the 'going-to-fall-sick-any-moment' zone.

how much worse can this holidays get. beside it ending in few days time. and new year is coming. im too bummed to set a new resolution. each time i do, its never accomplished. those i never expect i could accomplished, i actually did. so yea. let just go with the flow.

ps: i want to eat seoul garden or sakura or any buffet meals. few more weeks and grand hyatt here i comeeeeee... :)))

also, wanna met my kentalan bacins bf, take a look..

hahaha. k fret not. i was just bored at that moment. he's not as bad as it look.

and yes you. i love you very very much still.. =))

2009-12-22T19:35:00.003+08:00

im bored. im listless. im pissed. im dissapointed.

but most of all, im reallllllyyy hungryy..

what happen to the bubbly nasy?

was eaten up by her serial killer thoughts.

2009-12-15T23:34:00.005+08:00

The 4 mugger-heads race directors

the people behind the development of SYNERGY (Pure Endurance)- NYP Adventure Race. congrats you people and as well as the whole team. you make NYP ADC name stands out tall and shine. Thank youuuu.. im proud of this baby. all those efforts and stressing out session was truly indeed worth it.

the race allow me to realise smtg. behind every success involve conflicts and rationale. then you will start to blame one another for pushing the task around. typically, one will just complain and complaiin and complain. i admit i did that too. pity nadiah and bf for all my whines and everything. but after doing lottts of complains and whining, i realise it doesnt help at all. i really got to put action behind those complains and things start to get working and i feel better. pressure is no longer there. but at all point of time, you need to be strong. dont allow others to overwrite you. i lose at that point. but now that its over, least there is something for me to be proud as cause i did put in lots of hardwork. that is a truly lesson learnt.

i hate when someone compares me to another. everyone is unique to their own ways and we got to accept that fact. but as human nature, when someone compares you to someone better, you get real jealous and feel challenged. but when you are being compared to someone not in the least as challenging, you feel good. your self esteem increase. but upon saying all this stuff, i still compare myself to others. yes. i say i detest ppl comparing me. confusing isnt it? that what makes me hate myself or even feel so demoralised and moody crept all over me. i felt so apathetic. i can change in a split second when my brain start to do the comparison. i think i really think too much. gosh. maybe mum was right. im too competitive. nasy really got to change herself before her self esteem get reallllll low.

last week i had 4 exams. i screwed it up totally. i teared. but think back again? what for? i was under so much influence and i start to become a crybaby. it very childish act of me. i do realise. but i dont know why. maybe stress hormones that are release into me lock together with my 'cry-baby' hormones. one moment i want someone to comfort me but another while, i just want to be alone. again, i sound pretty unsure of what i am. i need someone who can make me think straight. stop me from getting more and more indecisive. im not used to be one. it feels weird and dumb. pfftt..

maybe it time to talk to mummy about this. but i just hate the thought of her putting the bf issue in this. it is soooo not link to it uh.gosh. i want a proper outing. somewhere for me to release my stress. take a stroll in the breeze. i had enough!

2009-12-13T23:50:00.009+08:00

Nadiah Sapuan.

Though im not literally under you in the admin site but somehow i feel i've work with you more than melvin. every single thing i'll consult you. seeking either for advisor or listener. and guess what babe. you gave me more than i could ever ask for. you really make my life not only in adc wonderful but the whole of my year 2 life in poly. you are like my inspiration. motivating me in carrying my task out properly. except in studying! hahha. you always feed me with junks. but i dont mind. hahhaa. having someone who constantly listen to my whines. giving me advice. babe. i seriously can never thank you enough. on 11/12/2009. when i was about to leave you behind to obs. i feel weird. im like half heartedly want to leave you behind. but we got to do our individual task. you can ask shidah how i keep on repeatedly saying i want to be back to changi village with you. hahha. yes. it sound so stalking but hey babe. you were there when im at my lowest end and so were you there when im at my highest end. from orientation camp onwards and when im stuck in wmfr.
seriously babe. i can never thank you enough. you help me in becoming a strong independent woman. if there is a war, i think i can lead them well. chey chey. hahha. k now im being too ambiguous. the year is coming to an end soon. though you hate me mentioning this but i know you still got another 6 month with us but i hope our contact dont just end there. one of the friendship that i never want to loose. hahaha. kk i think i can give you goosebump with all these words but yea. i type it out without thinking. it just really flow out. thank you many many nadiah.

ha-ha. oh wow. gosh. this is loooonggg. hahaha.. :))

2009-11-07T01:55:00.003+08:00

its 2 in the morning. typically, i'll be snoring away at this timing. but dear me. that bf of mine has yet to text whether he reach not. i bet he's too exhausted to do so anyway. hence, after doing lots of blog-hopping, my mind start to swirl around once again. wishing for this and that. reminiscing the past upon stumbling over an old old friend or foe i dont know.

time is moving on wayyy to fast. there is so many things to achieve and yet too many memories to hold. im still confuse by what i want. i feel blessed that i have the opportunities to do all the stuff that i want. but to think back once again, i once wished that i stop doing all these. now you get the idea of how confuse i am?

i want to excel in this. and i want to excel in that. but somehow, i had enough of this and that. i want to do those. im just fickle minded.

and now, i've been staring at this screen for whole 20mins. my phone not ringing. my eyes are shutting. so i guess i'll just continue this random post again.

actually, main point for this post is that i hope i can find my true self one fine day. as for now, i shall just go and whack every single thing. being envy of others is just typical ladies. but one can never be the other. get that in ur head nasy! and yes. your bf has slept on you. so nasy should also just go to sleep la deii...

k bye. its the 3rd month boy. yippee to that! =)

alamak. aku lapar plak..

2009-11-03T11:35:00.003+08:00

it's been approximately a month since my last update. im just too busy as usual. timetable has been such a bitch. starting in the early morning, end as late in the evening and some long break in between. pfft! only now i realise that im squeezing in 9 modules once again. nursing is totally whack. having the most highest cut off point and yet they make us study like some jc students. forcing us to stuff lots of info within short period and expect us to remember it for a lifetime? a**h***.

so here i am having one week mc due to sprained ankle. wilfred claimed i visited a mongolian doctor cause sprain ankle doesnt cover till a week of mc. so given my stubborness, i will go school by tmwr i tell you. it's bored sitting alone at home the whole day. and mummy do not allow me to walk around much in the house either. so all i can do is to be a couch potato and watch dvd the whole day. pfftt! & yes. the most dreadful news i ever received is that I CANT GO FOR HALF ISLAND HIKE! urghhh!! how dramatic can my parents be. its been 2 expedition that i went without nadiah sapuan. and now it going to be the 3rd. sucks man!

bf is coming over. he has been far the most patience person ever! i think i owe him that much you know. angry, sad, stress, crazy. all these whacky random emotions of mine that just come and go, he manage to tolerate it so far. and to say he tolerate with it pretty well. always lending me his shoulders when i need it. you're awesome my dear one. :)

one month plus left till that big baby is out. i've been doing all the shit loads. and if someone dares to put some hard comments on it, i soooo going to fuck that person upside down left right. when one claim to try to be optimistic and receive comment positively, well i shall just say try to be in my position and see how you react. its not easy to handle this. having a demanding advisor who likes comparison so much and no-act-talk-only partner, it pretty stress things out. but im going to make this thing a blast though despite all these complains. cause all the hard work behind it, things must go smoothly. so nasy must start to learn the breathing therapy to calm herself down each time she thinks about it. so breatthhhhhh nasyyy..

i want to be that little mummy/daddy girl once again. im tired of being so independent. oh wait. i think now im a big bf girl. hahah. doesnt make sense right? too bad if you dont understand.

to be updated one month later? who knows? hasta la vista people!! :))

2009-10-12T12:49:00.006+08:00

Definition of awesome.

now i understand how my dear nadiah feels upon us leaving her behind for stong. but at the very least, she got her attachment to keep her companied. my batch of peers has leave me for obs. im feeling very bored and dread right now. i've been doing all the nonsense and redundant stuff since morning. and my hp has gone all silent up except for dear nadiah msg and call. and no one talkative is online.

right now im procastinating on two stuff. one is going to school today for training. two is going for the wmfr course. to think there is only 2 girls (a lecturer and me) and two malays (a pri sch boy and me) make everything sound so "exciting". pfftt!

i feel like putting a stop to everything. its like im rushing my holidays off. squeezing everything into all. i just want to have one day off where i get to spent my time with my loved one. having bf by my side holding my hand throughout the whole day, gossiping with beloved nadiah and munching on junks for the whole day, laughing out loud with nadzii for the whole day, story telling with iten and the list goes on. i want to have a pretty layback day. a weekend escape.

*nasyinreminiscingmode* i want to go back to kinabalu days. seriously!

i cant stop browsing through all those photos back. how much fun i had in life this far. expedition one after another. camps is like a daily routine. event management is like part of my course. and all these are thanks to adc. the source of everything. my happiness, sorrowness, chaotic-ness, arguments and of course my lover. hahah.

oh wait. anothing thing to procastinate about. school. how much im dreading it. school is just equivalent to attachment. gosh! somehow it make me realise how confused i am when it comes to my future. i know what i want but im not doing it. im doing something else and just hoping that what i aim for can be achieved somehow in a way or another. i just hate how my toughts works sometimes. another factors that cause me to be confuse.

i want year 2008 back again. when i was just a freshie. not under so much pressure during sch and attachment and having my alumnis back with me as my seniors. with no doubt, i miss them real loads. urggghhh. i think i start to think so much again. blame bf for making my hp go silent. k no. dont blame him. blame obs. heheh. k tak. gosh! im so fickle minded.

and now, i've been sneezing non stop and having the runs. here & there stomach-aching. even in the toilet im sneezing. blame the rain. been playing in it several times. eheh. k pray hard i'll recover during camp instead of deteriorating.

oh boy. now i really dont feel like going to school knowing no one will send me back home tonight. booo. sucky! i know its only few hours. but i miss my bf. no msges from him make me think of him so much. god. i hate it when im in love. its irritating. hahah. but i still love you monkey. :)

alright then. nasy should stop deluding herself with all those thoughts and should get her lazy ass to school! chalobeteh.

2009-10-05T21:05:00.001+08:00

stong expedition was a bliss.

2009-09-19T00:11:00.010+08:00

something that is very simple yet means a WHOLE lot to me. every single gesture he do melts me. and each time he give hints that something is up on his sleeves, it never fails to give me butterfly in the stomach for i know that it will just makes me fall in love even deeper. and yes. i appreciate having him standing by me. I LOVE YOU babyboy! :))
now i think i owe you too much. tak per bf. jage kau! hehehehuhhu*mischievesmile*

im tired. i feel awful. i hate when im sick. and i apologise to bf cause i was being so zombie-like for the meet up. nevertheless, i still had fun earlier on. im going to miss you while you're away to stong... :(

3 weeks down bebeh. a week left and im freeeeee. well not really to say. im having such a tight-ass schedule all the way till sch reopen. goooodneesss! and raya is in two days time.. IM SOOOO NOT READY CAN?.

k bye. im really sick and i want to sleep. continue some other time. heheh.

i love you too boy!

2009-09-13T17:06:00.003+08:00

im officially down with rubbish flu and extremely painful sore throat. it felt like i just drank a whole bottle of alcoholic drink. though i've never drink one but having people describing to me what the taste like, somehow i conclude myself that its the same.

ystd was historic. went to jb with parent and bf. oh. little brother too. first meet up, bf already late. upon entering the car, his perfume gave away. its like we are breathing his perfume rather than oxygen. cutting short the story, we bought lots of kuih for raya. bf n boy played bowling at 10pm and bf really sucks at it i think. haha. as i thought playing bowling, we suppose to release the ball while we are still standing. guess what, he did the opposite. in simple terms, he fell down while he bowl. we reach sgp around midnight. had supper, send that boy home and home sweet home for the rest of us.

a week left till raya. tmwr attachment starts again. crap. im dreading myself especially in this condition of mine. pfft!

you're my babylove. :)

2009-09-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

OH BOY! how much do i detest my current situation.

having my clinical instructor breathing down my neck was infuriating. constantly asking me extravanganza question. expecting me to do work which i have not learnt. and by having those experience E.N as my partner make things even worse! i was listed the bottom. its just not fair. they were in nursing line wayyy before i do. they pick up lots of skill wayy before i do. so how in the world can they compare us! yes. i know we both are year 2s but heck! you know what. this just deprive the confidence out of me. i just feel so dumb and useless. uber demoralising!

i shall thank all the nonsense shit ite peers of mine. they brought the laughter out of me while working. and yet, each time my instructor there, everything go back to square one.

another thing that is bothering me. do you know how much i loath being in the middle. & i thought friends are suppose to help make each other life easier? so what happen to that definition? im like trying to please everyone. making everyone happy. and guess what, i end up having the most depressing feelings right now. having a higher position is smtg not amazing when your friends dont. some may take things for granted and from there, you began to lose respect from them instead of gaining one. isnt that just sound confusing enough?

i feel like screaming. yet i feel like crying. my brain is inter-twine right now. i should hit the sack and pretend nothing happen. life can be sooo intriguing in the negative way. pfft!

everything will be a rush now. its time for me to strengthen my backbone and push all the obstacles away. and yes. nasy now talks so the macam paham!

ARRRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-07T21:50:00.004+08:00

Thanks Nur Khaizurah for cheating my feelings yet, it was a pleasant surprise. haha. so much of getting a new pairs of shoe at ions. pfftt!!

'you are my antidotes!'

HA-HA!

my love never change one bit at all baby. i love you. :)

2009-09-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

initially, planned to sleep early today but my heart is still jumping with excitement. finally i met my bf! oh boyyy!

let just rant out my dumb attachment second day first. i swear my year 1 are uber dumb. they dont know the usage of a commote. they suck at dynamap and manual bp set too. so here i am wondering what the helllll did they studied in school? NGT? FEEDING? or just mainly communicate with the patients. but thank god that they are tet enough. thus leaving me with reallll lots of work to do and my time pass by vvvveryy fast i tell you. conditions that i adore so much. and with my favourite weather playing outside. overall it was a super breezy day and i like. :))

to add on, right after i sign out, my favourite boy called. and yessss. finally! a super duper short half hour meet up yet making my heart felt absolutedly contented. cause i swear i really missed him damn lot since ystd. i was so downnn because of it. & tmwr they are climbing and im still working. :( nvm. come on nasy. be optimistic. friday is coming. friday is coming. yippee yappa doo! i love you boyfriend!!

i love today. what a nice welcoming for september. :))

2009-08-31T18:04:00.003+08:00

first thing upon entering the ward was, noticing all staff wearing the scrub suit. super duper awesome! and to get to know that certain wards even allow the students to wear it make me even jealous la sey. pfftt!

second thing i notice was needing to wear the stupid bloody mask. ahhh. here goes another round of oily-till-cause-blackheads face. i was breathless all the time and i keep pulling down my mask. not amazed if my hygiene grade were to be bad. haha.

and to say in my ward, there is 5 year 2 students. LOTs of year 1 student. & LOTS of ite students. to add on, the staff there is the most whackiest staff i ever met makes my whole environment chaotic. and yes. some of them even remember meee regardless with mask on or not. im so touch. ohh. *dramatic a little here*

well. thats it for my first day. my legs are killing me. and i still think ite people are friendlier than my year 1. nice people to work with. ha-ha. imagine NASYITA is saying that. pheww!! nasy is a change person and i like it. :)))

oh ya. i figured that my hair is like wayyyy to thick and desperately need a haircut. i bun up my hair and i felt like i was balancing a stone mannn. goodness! someone get me a hairdresser pleaseeeee..

noh oh noh. cheeeerrrr uppp will you! i get worried thinking of you. chey de bah! hahha. i love you sweetie bf!